Been thinking… Fairly certain I want to do OT, but so many people are expecting me to do this (perhaps coz I talk about it so much ) it makes me apprehensive and question everything. Is it really what I want to do? Or do I just think it is coz someone suggested it and I sorta grasped onto the idea? Also, I have this sinking feeling that I am giving up on psych in choosing not to be a psychologist. This is stupid! I am still finishing the degree! I will have a degree in 6months!!! Besides there is so much scope in mental health for OTs that I could essentially have the best of both worlds. Still, I am sorta kinda considering applying for honours… To keep my options open? Am I crazy? This would probably depress me a lot. Still… once upon-a-time I wanted to be a psychologist, or at least liked the idea of it. Even now, I am not certain if I have liked this degree, I am not 100% sure what I will do in the future. Still there is nothing else I would have preferred to study. Hmm. I think too much.
The other night when I asked husband what he honestly thinks I would be good at, he replied with “whatever I apply my mind too”. I liked his response. I do try hard. Even in my current subjects, that I am not jumping over the moon about, I try hard to get the best marks I possibly can.
I am one of those people that doesn’t really have a huge passion for anything. I have to try really hard to be actively involved in things. Maybe it’s coz I get too easily distracted, or possibly because I am interested in a lot of things it’s hard to narrow it down and be super passionate about a single thing. Because of this people call me a phase person. I am scared that when I finish study I will get out into the real world and not like the career I have put years of effort into getting into. SIGH. At the end of the day I suppose I just need to remember that everything in this world is temporary and the most important thing is glorifying God in everything I do.
Conclusion: I think too much and don’t sleep enough.